My family

My family
Child of God, Mother, Wife, Sister, Daughter, Aunt, and friend

Friday, September 21, 2007

A Wonderful Loss of Control

Isn't it wonderful how, just when you think you're settled into a good "groove" or schedule in life, God has a way of spicing things up? I, myself, find that in my adult life, I have struggled with the need to be in control. Becoming a wife and mother has certainly lessened that need, but I still find that it lingers from time to time. I recall when I was pregnant with Anna, that most people I talked to warned me to try and prepare myself for a child that was opposite of Kayla, and since she was such a great sleeper from very early on, I was a little worried. Now that Anna is here, I've come to find that it's true! Although, I know it could be worse, Anna has proven to be a light sleeper, while Kayla could sleep through a train going through her room! All this to say, I have had to give up the control in this area of my life, as frustrating as it's been. There are nights that I pray for a night of uninterrupted sleep, but after that doesn't happen, and Anna is up for the day, I find myself just gazing into her puffy little eyes and all else melts away. I know that God has blessed me with not one precious child, but two, and for that I will forever be grateful. So what if I don't have the control....after all, it's not about me, is it? It is about serving an awesome God.......

1 comment:

Lauren said...

Weren't we just talking about this together? This is what I MUST lay at the Lord's feet on a more consistent basis. Not just for my own personal life, but for the lives of the people around me that I love and want certain outcomes. It is not in our hands, for His will be done. Amen.

Your sister in Christ and blood,